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i (f21) recently found out that i like my guy best friend (m21). its a real shock to me as i have never grown gradual attraction to anyone before, i thought i saw us as sibling-like and that’s what i’ve always told people. even everyone says we give a sibling vibe more than anything, and i was always okay with that. liking someone has always been something i knew from the first time i saw a guy and i’d be hooked for months or years, even i’ve had plenty of guy friends and i never grew attraction to them, except for this guy apparently. i realised first when my heart started fluttering when we’d look at each other and laugh, and hes always been playfully touchy with me, which is something i don’t really do with guy friends but i reciprocate more ever since i found out of my feelings. he’s a real friendly and helpful guy to everyone no matter the gender, the type to mix with people in their first meet, the type to drop his things to help if anyone ever called, so i’m not sure where he marks the line between a friendly or flirty interaction and i try not to dwell on things we do too much to not get my hopes up. we used to hang in a group, but recently we’ve ended up hanging out together quite often, in a group we end up sitting together and having an isolated talk, i’ve even rode on his motorbike which he said hes only done with his ex before and i can’t tell if i make it up in my mind or if there is a shift when we’re together. it’s impossible to tell if things are reciprocated unless i ask him straight up, but i don’t feel like ruining the closeness i have with him right now and i don’t think i’m ready for any relationships either. i don’t want our friends to know either since i’m trying to brush these feelings quietly away for now. but i do wanna know if its possible for him to like me back or grow the same feelings? or since our start has been a strong platonic friendship, will he only ever see me as a close friend and nothing more? or maybe is it possible for me to see him as sibling-like again and move on from this?